I'm having a bit of trouble lately sorting out how I feel about friends-- namely letting go of friendships that just aren't working. I am having trouble finding connections with a person, and I'm afraid I've been putting too much energy into trying to keep this relationships alive. I'm left at the point where I feel more alone when I'm with this person than when I am by myself... that is a bad sign! But for some reason, I'm finding it hard to not care, or to let go of my feelings about these people. When do you know a friendship is over?
On the other hand, I am finding that knitting, and crafting more generally, has been a good source of connection. A couple of my best friends and I have crafting in common, and it has been a bond that has sustained and nourished our friendships. And when I take time to sit and knit and sort through my feelings, things don't feel quite so bad or alone. I always have my knitting, and myself. Sometimes that's all I need!